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Aug 31, 2009

the good, the bad.

later that night-
hello:) i've listened to el camino real for over ten times now & i can never ever get sick of it, ever. i love how grand it is & seriously, it makes me dream like im in some ballroom with my hair tied really complicatedly and dancing. it makes me SMILE! i love elcam! &thus, the heading of my blog, haha(: i feel de-emofied now, elcam cheered me up. &also talking to clara. she REVEALED SOMETHING. made me laugh like crazy! night!:D
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time stood still.
&&&&&& its an illusion :D, you know what i mean.

my mouth is retarded...D:
me, jaime, clara.

i like this picture^^

laura! :D

stefanie& hannah! :)

jaime again, heh heh :)

helllo! :) two weeks gone so quickly!

the good.
today was teacher's day celebration! :D was excited for performance, feng song! came to school at i think 0615. went to bandroom and quickly warmed up and tuned. after that, went up to council room (for checking of balloons & 0700 brief) & found no one there. i was tempted to go back to bandroom when i saw claudia approaching the council room. after awhile, ppl started coming & we started checking the balloons. & for some reason, when i was arranging the chairs on the stage alone for band, when i was checking the balloons from bottom view alone, when i was standing right there, i started to cry. i scolded myself for being so pathetic & quickly wiped my face. i didnt go for the 0700 brief as band was coming up on stage to take their seats already. & when i approached the stage & saw naixin, samantha, stacy, shangle & my seniors, i felt so much better, so much happier.
the school got their butts to hall & started chatting like hell. we had to wait for a super long time before the thing actually begun & we had to sit straight for super long time. with the two lights shining onto the stage and my back starting to hurt, i kept pespiring, my glasses kept sliding down! bleahhh! it begun. feng song was super nice! though i made some mistakes like rushing, it wasnt obvious &i didnt screw it.
titanic song! got to the front of the stage & SANNNG! our swaying was a bit weird, haha. but yayyy very fun! while going back on stage to get our instru., back row of titanic song burst a balloon hanging on the stage &the golden cloth thing came down! haha. :)whoops, there goes pubtion's work.
went back to bandroom, kept my clarinet & headed to canteen for duty. canteen duty is to babysit the performers before they go to hall. some useless duty. after the performers went up, me and joel went up to join the rest of functions backstage. &thats really all i can remember, for now.

i zao-ed after sweeping the floor in the hall and went to shps! saw zhenni and we headed to hall where we saw mr lauuuu! zhennis malay friend was also there and i felt so left out. and then i saw her name tag and it read:
JAIME CHOO
i was like shitzxczxzczxzcz! she was damn tanned and super tall. pretty lor jaime! she looked totally different okay! in a good way la:D after i think an hour, us 3 made our way to mac where laura was eating lunch with her friends. after eating, zhenni went home and me and jaime went staff room to see mr lau. bryan and shermon were there too. i didnt know shermon was so funny lor. ahah. stayed there for quite some time. bunny lunxiang, stefanie, hannah noreen laura also came. clara came eventually. took some pics. haha. saw shimin and jiaying in 293 when laura clara jaime and me headed to interchange. went to bugis & windowshopped, also, i realised jaime has great appetite! haha. let the pictures do the talking, & u can go to jaime's or clara's blog, lazy to post in full detaill... ._.

the bad.

why do i feel as if i dont fit in?
is it just me?
whats wrong with me?
why do i feel so left out?
i try to make conversation but they ignore me & talk to someone else?
i call their name but they do not hear?
what is this?
is this what its suppose to be like?
is it because my chinese sucks?
am i singled out cause i speak english?
or is it cause i cant make jokes and act stupid?
i thought they said we would bond the most.
why does it feel so... lonely?
so rejected from the society.

on that day, i was on the escalator going out of tanah merah mrt.
i was wearing my uniform, the sc one.
on the opposite side, i saw a group of seniors that belonged to choir.
i recognized that one of the guy(sec 4) belonged to sc.
he saw me and he suddenly said loudly, 'you'll regret it for the rest of your life!'

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maybe i do.

Aug 16, 2009

any dream will do,

i just watched a show called any dream will do on bbc entertainment. heheh, it featured oldies and thats what i like about it. quite cooool. :D

my music exam is in one week.
AHHHHHH!
my tone is so piah, not full lor. so nervous, im getting sweaty palms now
i cant believe i still have the time to blog. have chinese ca this coming week. eee.
i guess i'll get going now, i just came here to check whether this blog's dead already.

byebye for now :D
by the way, the three musketeers are so cool! lol, i just watched the man behind the iron mask just now la. very nice ok. and one part of it reminds me of star wars for some reason, the part when D'Artagnan reveals that Philippe is actually his son! :0 so luke i am your father la. haha.

ok byebye!
i like aramis! hehheh, hes the smart one. lol lol lol lol,
okok im going.

Aug 9, 2009

strawberry banana blend:D

today, i ate a lot of good food :D
went to sia club gym and worked out, really. some of the gym machines were super scary, there was one called the knee/chin assist or something like that. kay, then exercised for 2 hours and then we went to eat lunch. i had fish and they allowed you to choose 2 side orders(hot and cold) so i chose a cold potato salad with warm mash potato. mummy said i was nuts but it turned out to be suppper good! :D

after that, we went home and showered. then we went out again to orchard and went to ion, you know the new shopping mall. lol, i always think its called atom for some reason. =.= there, there was renaldo's strudels. apple ones were sold out so i decided to get a mini blueberry one. i decided to eat it as we window shopped and it was seriously very brittle and it got very messy. nevertheless it was extremly nice! :D

after shopping for a couple of hours, we came home and there were some leftover donuts so i ate one just before dinner. and after that mummy cooked fried kueh tiao so i brought it to the living room to watch ndp09 and eat at the same time.

some pig i amxD

hahaha. ndp09 was...ok. very bright.

i shall now talk about TREE PLANTING!!!
i screwed it up.
D:
it was super hot and unfortunately, clarinet section was standing under the hot glaring sun. we practices concert suite and the trumpet voluntary many times until i was sick of it. soon the vips came and i totally blanked out. i forgot to skip to bar 37 for concert suite and in the end i never play the middle part!!! AHHH!

then for trumpet voluntary it was really ok just that we had to repeat it 3 TIMES because they took super damn long! AHHHHH, my lip was dying and i probably looked like some old granny cause my glasses kept sliding out my nose cause of all the sweat. stupid sun! but it ended eventually and it was allll good!
too bad i screwed concert suite....):
the after party was so delicious:D there were home made curry puffs and bananas and coke and marshmellows and seaweed and icecream!(from cool creme) :D yum.

ive been pretty disoraganized! misplaced my pokemon box with my deck inside and also misplaced my stickers ms leong gave me last time for childrens day! CRAP #!@&^(*P#@$! i hate being so messy, but ive searched everywhere! ._.
i wanna change my urlllll! D: but have no time.

background and 5 coloured characters for art by thurs
study for chinese ca on 18/8
english essay for readers digest thing

only left these stuff to do! ill go type out my essay now.

byebye!
:D

Aug 6, 2009

TREE PLANTING TOMORROW!!

tree planting is tomorrow!!
:D
exciteddd! its like the very first public performance.
but i hope that the vip will walk fast and plant tree fast! :) wahhh, today i MISSED SECTIONALS.
I MISSED SECTIONALS.
I MISSED SECTIONALS.
I MISSED SECTIONALS.
because was decorating the school with balloons:D i hope no shit goes and burst the balloons pubtions put up... tmr have to go to school very earllly! like be seated in bandroom at 0700, so i'll go at 0630, to set up instrument and practice the running notes in concert suite. or maybe i'll wake up late and only be there at 0640:/ blahhh! stress.

2 pubtions proposal for teachers day by tue
background and 5 coloured characters for art by thurs
practice clarinet exam pieces
do sci worksheet
do maths worksheet
study for chinese ca on 18/8
english essay for readers digest thing

omgosh, omgosh. i need strength from goddd! D:
my music exam is in a few weeks time and i really think i wont do well! D:
plus i dont want to disappoint ms leong, she really is a good teacher.
she bought me lots of nice things.
crazzzzzzy!

had recess duty today..
charisse switched with sapphire so we can do duty together!:)
wahlao, some rude dude (probably sec 2) with his group of friends tried to bring green tea bottle up to class. actually, it had very little already i think. then i tell him cannot bring up. then he was so arrogant and was like OK LORR! then he drink in front of me and was like, finish already? can go? after that he walking up the stairs that time he drew the bottle onto the ground. screw him la, poop!

oh ya, today wore sc uniform:D
i thought it would be cooler...but the tie gave me hell!!!
super warm! ._.
but when take out quite shuang. haha.

i going off now, byebye!
:D

Aug 4, 2009

orange butter cookies with white chocolate chunk-cranberry cookies:P

craving for some sweet stuff,
i might as well stuff sugar down my throat.
:/
anyway, i was looking through one of my diabetes research book and found those two snacks. haha, why did i borrow library books based on recipes for diabetes? for home econs la! haha.
im feeling relatively high now, just finished 2.4! (:happy.
then after that went to eat mac breakfast at tm with yanyong!! cause eunice got tuition, she couldnt join us. then adrian claimed he had some music thing? but then, in the end, we gatecrashed his house!! hahaha. then we watced some stupid videos on youtube then we played this mahjong like game that i can recall its name and we played stress and uno too. then we played a bit of 'would u rather'. after a while we (yy and drain) went to tm one for a very very short while. then we made our way to sunplaza park or smth..

we swing swing awhile, then we walked to yys house, which is all the way at dunman sec. he live same hdb as mr lau! :D haha. then watched him play maple as i stole his biscuits from his biscuit tin. then me and adrian went home.

on thurs wearing sc uniform!! AHHHD: i scared i look weird leh. :/ but excited at the same time. fri is tree planting and band is playing!! weeee!:D
i havent got started on my essay. cause ms nisrin selected me and steph to participate in the readers digest essay competition. AHH! extra stuff to do.
somemore tmr got music, and i have no clue on the rhythm thingy and the top of the world.
ahh, hope i can just pass this hurdle..

oh ya,
CONCERT DATE CHANGED TO NEXT YEAR, JAN-FEB!!!:D
HAPPPPPPY!:D
thank you thank you thank you thank you so much band teachers, and esp GOD!

byebye for now:)