mannnda (:

Sep 17, 2007

sadness.

hiding this secret that concerned me for more than one week, to be exact five weeks, is totally wrong.
it feels as if everyone just knew what was happening and i was kept in the dark.
it all started after school. laura had a new nickname: sir stanford raffles, and me- sir stanford waffles. we were laughing and laughing. it was the best monday stayback, and everything was going my way.
thats what i thought.
until, laura was murmuring, 'he trick u ok...' and i was like trick what? then she said, nvm. i promised jaime not to tell, or else she'll kill me. then i said, 'but bestfriends tell EVERYTHING.' then she told me.
i was horrified. mandy started saying that i was 'shermon lover' because someone had told her too. guess who.
nicholas. i was totally shocked. well, this is all jaime say to laura one, but when i smsed nicholas about it, he didnt reply.
so it was obvious that he started all this. he told mandy to tease me, and mandy told jaime and jaime told laura..that was all in term 3. and i only find it out in term 4.
what shit is this. then, laura saw me looking very sad that i even cried in the library so she go and used the public phone and phoned nicholas.
nicholas: (picks up phone) hello?
laura: are u nicholas yeo?
nicholas: yes...?
laura: hi, fiona gave me this number.
nicholas: are u sophie?
laura: err..yes i am. did u receive the msg from sir stanford raffles? (laura smsed nick using that name)
nicholas: you are not sophie. no..you are not.
laura: i am lah- shermon lover.
nicholas: whatever. shut up (puts down phone)
nicholas was tricked by laura's voice. that was good. but i was wondering, who the hell was sophie. i went over to lionel and asked him.
oh..some girl in my class. sophie..hoo! yes sophie hoo.
that was what lino milo said.
laura and i got to our bags and flipped through the 2003 album. laura said she knew sophie. she was also agnes's friend. then, laura found sophie's primary one class.
i looked at her.
i didnt say anything, i just went into the library.
i didnt know how to feel.
i felt angry and sad at the same time.
more sad though.
more sad.
am i that dumb? am i always the last one to find out? why. why?

to clara: i dont care lah ok? u dun need to announce to the whole world that i look like a geek ok? u dun need to say NERD ALERT! or GEEK ALERT! it actually hurts ok? HURTS.

to jacel: i dont feel like talking to you guys for now..sorry...D:
oh, and we JACEL all went for the prefect interview. well, we just wrote on that paper. hope we all get nominated..~

this is what i took about half an hour ago.
and jie tweaked it to become black and white.
and she said: my sister the diva...
and i was like...D: isnt that what ALL the sisters say about their younger mei meis?
ANYWAY..my phone bill increase 20 dollars. the reason is obvious. now- i'll off my phone for about 2 hours, so dont expect me to reply to your smses anymore.