today is very lucky.
even laura got a stare from joel. a LOVE stare- she says.
okok. so i was soo scared for maths paper. mr lau was getting closer and closer to my desk handing out the maths paper to the others. some heads were down, hiccup-ing all the way. some were going YES! and YAY! i was scared. would my head be down- crying and crying or up saying woohoo! mr lau gave the paper to bryan, then lunxiang, then issac. and finally came to my desk and gave me my paper. i looked at mark. and smiled. WOOOOOOHOOOOOO! FINALLY A HIGH B FOR MATHS! MATHS. MATHS!!! above target somemore.. wah sei...4 more marks can get A LEH. A LEH. I GOT A B!!!!! B! B! B! FINALLY NOT A STINKY RETARDED C! WOOOHOOO! B!!!! so chinese and maths got two bs! i hope english is A and science is B!!! want to get that. it'll be nice. then got high chance of getting that phone. ARGH why can't the english compo hurry up be marked. wanna get it so can tally up my total marks...-.- sighs can't wait for coming monday i think science marks will be given out as well. i hope. oh and jaime, i really dont care la. say whatever. u can't spoil my mood now!


friendship.
is very very complicated. i know im a lame jerk who is choosy about my friends..but sometimes we cant be choosy. oh STRAWBERRY FIELDS FORVER my long time favourite. after the whole song u hear some music then u hear john lennon saying cranberry sauce, many believe he said 'i buried paul' freakkkkyyyy.

later..
sometimes it really breaks my heart. it really breaks my heart to know how STUPID i really was last time. he's online again, and he doesnt care shit about how i feel. keep on saying whatever and idiotic 'lolz' and my heart really..broke this time. really really broke. its really sad to know that u tried soo hard to get him to like you and yet he doesnt give a damn. it feels like u just wasted a whole lot of time just wanting to get his attention, wanting to be loved. thats why i support a1's saying. love is a lie. a definite lie. now he watching simpsons the movie. i feeel like hammering him lor. i tried soo hard ok. SO HARD. i threw away all my revision time to see whether he online, i threw a whole load of money down the drain to sms him, asking him how he feels, is he ok. i was acting like a freaking mother to him. and yet, it feels like he is a son who doesnt care shit to his mother. it feels like this. so nicholas, after you read this, please please and i beg a hundred times dont give me the whatever reply on msn. it hurts oh so badly. a1, i know exactly how u feel. is like, the person once liked u, then u say studies is much more impt we should just be good friends. that was what i said as well. u said that too right? and now, i feel like bending time as well and going back to dont say what i say, so that...*hiccups*
it wont be like this.

if i did,
it will never have been like this.
never ever.
oh shit i have to stop being so sentimental cause i cry cry cry no use. tears for nobody.
cause nobody understands how i feel.
even the person i liked once.